How are you all coping with the holidays now?

Some of my current concerns:
1. Finding out I have to see certain relatives around this time of year triggers me. Of course it has to happen on a day where I want peace and quiet. It's hard enough having to spend time with people in general. Plus, not sure if anyone relates... but relatives with such conflicting views involving politics and being super loud and obnoxious about it, is something I cannot stomach. Hopefully they'll get the memo, because a few other family members hates that too.
2. My boss is leaving, and I found out they are having this big going away party for her smack in the middle of the week when I really don't have much time off and need it to rest, because I've been really struggling trying to take care of myself while working. Although I thought about going on temporary leave, but I want to try seeing if my medication increase helps.

3. New Year's: I was invited by a couple of friends who might go out, unless they decide to have their own party. These are the only few people I sort of keep up with. They do not live around the corner, and I am afraid of people drinking when driving on the roads. Also, I don't like to drink anymore, shouldn't be drinking, and find New Year's overrated. I just canceled, because I am not up to it and plan on staying in.

My feelings of wanting to avoid people right now has been a problem. I do not feel comfortable, get irritable, and feel vulnerable. Thinking about losses has really been upsetting me as well.

What are some of your challenges right now?