Hello molimolimolly: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral.

Since you're a psychotherapy trainee, I would presume you know much more about this sort of thing than I would. Based on what you wrote, it sounds to me as though, perhaps, you are experiencing some transference? I've never done much in the way of therapy myself. So this is not a topic I have personal experience with myself. I only know what I read, as the saying goes.

Here are links to 7 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of the psychotherapeutic relationship, transference, and on becoming a psychotherapist:

Psychotherapy – A Relationship You Can Understand | Psychotherapy Matters

Transference in Therapy

Transference is Not Transferable | Therapy Unplugged

Got Countertransference? A Journal Exercise to Better Understand | Psych Central Professional

Psychologists Spill: When I Knew I'd Become a Psychotherapist

https://psychcentral.com/lib/therapi...g-a-clinician/

https://pro.psychcentral.com/private...vate-practice/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.