What I'd like to know is...

where are all my so called friends and family now that it's almost Christmas?
I mean all year long it's can you fix this laptop can you build me this desktop can you come for a bbq and oh by the way can you figure out what's wrong with my network my phone I need my phone so here you fix it you're good with that kind of stuff...don't get me wrong I love helping friends and family but lately in the last few years it's like this every time a holiday comes along...they can't be bothered with me because they have families who need them...I used to think you know what you f***ers I'm going to start charging you for all this fixing stuff for free from now on but then hey these are my friends and family so no I won't charge them money but it hurts like h e double hockey stix when here it is again 807 pm on x-mas eve and not one of them have phoned or messaged or even acknowledged that I exsist...it's so freaking lonely I was thinking why am I sitting here waiting for them but then I remember last year when my sisters had their family get togethers I rang the doorbelll thinking what big surprise it was going to be all of us family together...my brother in law answered the door and you could hear a pin drop...he pulled a tenner out of his pocket and pushed into my hand as he said hey joe we didn't think you'd be interested so we didn't make enough food but hey mcds is open you should have called...I took the money from him and said yeah I should have called sorry it won't ever happen again and I went and had mcds with a homeless guy who was laying in a bus shelter...I swore to myself that it was okay you know I know what I am...my buddy the homeless guy he knows who I am...the crack heads who spin out of control know who I am...the little ones with no families they know who I am...I'm the one people only need or want around when there's nothing and no one else who can help...so here I am again crying and hurting for no reason cause I know these people will be back when they need me and I am okay with that....thank you for reading my rant....happy x-mas to all...