My young parts love my doc with a pure unparalleled joy. But it's a construct of him, based on what I know of him irl sure, but still a construct.

The love, the feeling of it, is no less real and immediate and encompassing for that though. I do want to tell him [x] loves him (x being the relevant part). I've used every other formulation in emails but not the simple declarative one.

He knows for sure though. Esp as we had a convo about erotomania and the incidence of it in our professions which I brought up as a back doorway to assure him it was not like an affair I was after. I am hoping as I grow and learn through therapy and through his type of medical care, it will fade away. He says in a few years you won't need me. I guess but he's such a dear man I wish not.

As an adult I respect, admire, am even in awe of his kindness, goodness, integrity, peacefulness (and a host of other positive traits but for me those are the main ones).

I don't love him as an adult. I'm his patient and only know that side of him, so any love for him as a person, a friend, I don't feel. He just doesn't have that role in my life.

I agree that there are many different types of love and I don't see why, on its facts e.g. where DP seems to have crossed over to proper friends, one can't love a t as a friend or a confidant or whatever other category the love goes in.

EtA: just reread the definitions of storge love and philia love as I was pretty sure someone else has said it better than I! For me there are different types of love not just eros.