Been feeling very insecure and invalid for a while now. Very unsure of self. Totally embarrsssed as to what comes out of this body (words and postings) and the way we are. Still in bed and it’s past noon.

We drink every night to oblivion, been thinking of AA...but this condition makes it hard to be an active participant. Just being with a group of people produces high anxiety and panic attacks. Parts interact one on one just fine, but in a group clams up leaving me high and dry.

I need to get out of bed.