Hello JustinTyme: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral. You mentioned you're 56. I'm 70! And I'm also a pretty reclusive person. (I've also burned many, many bridges over the years.) You made reference to your marriage. So one forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the relationships & communication forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/rela...communication/

The title of your post suggests you may be thinking you could possibly be diagnosed as having schizoid personality disorder. Here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, that discuss that particular disorder:

Schizoid Personality Disorder

Understanding Schizoid Personality Disorder | The Exhausted Woman

Schizoid Personality Disorder Treatment

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.