Thank you everybody, I appreciate you guys a lot. I'm not sure why I feel that way sometimes. Maybe it's because the anniversary of my moms death is coming up and I feel alone without her. Nothing is the same without her, it's just like she left and never came back, I didn't really get to say goodbye. She went to the hospital one night then I got a call that she died, and that was that. It was unexpected. I mean I know she had cancer, but was only diagnosed 9 months prior and seemed to be doing well up until a couple days before that. Then my life completely changed instantly within a couple days and I had to move back here where I haven't been since a little kid and be on my own. My emotions have been weird lately, kind of mixed up.