I have thought about you a lot the last couple of days. When the boys made apple pies to deliver to friends and neighbors I couldnt help but wish he was making you one again this year. I have thought about your son and empathize that this is his first Christmas without his mom. You were his only parent. I know how much he loves you. I saw on Fb that he now has a beautiful dog. I know how proud you were with his success. I am sure that would continue.

I also keep thinking about P. I know how happy your two were and glad to have found each other again and fallen in love. I know he doesn't have family around so I worry he is alone.

I love you and miss you dearly. I miss our email exchange wishing each other a Merry Christmas.