Ugh. What an awful way to feel!! It's bad enough to feel depressed...but guilty too? Yowsa.

Well, I'd start by learning about the biology behind depression, so that maybe I could feel a little less at fault. You don't cause your depression ya know? Honest. There is a good thread under the drug board. I can't recall the name of the thread, but it was started by Malady. It has a link to an article with some easy to understand info on the biology behind depression. See if you can find that and read it, ok?

Are you in therapy? Therapy can really help to sort out some of those thoughts you are having.

Take care, and keep posting. There are a LOT of people here who understand what you are going though.

emmy