" Although it's difficult, i don't think it's necessarily a bad thing to be reminded that I'm not the only one ."

Agree with this. I've seen my doctor now interacting with a few patients (in public) and he is so caring. So it's him, it's how he is to everyone. It's not special to me.

While difficult I welcome it as it provides a check on the idealisation attachment and a salutary reminder that I need to build irl support while he's providing like the scaffolding to keep me up.