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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird
Thank you everybody, I appreciate you guys a lot. I'm not sure why I feel that way sometimes. Maybe it's because the anniversary of my moms death is coming up and I feel alone without her. Nothing is the same without her, it's just like she left and never came back, I didn't really get to say goodbye. She went to the hospital one night then I got a call that she died, and that was that. It was unexpected. I mean I know she had cancer, but was only diagnosed 9 months prior and seemed to be doing well up until a couple days before that. Then my life completely changed instantly within a couple days and I had to move back here where I haven't been since a little kid and be on my own. My emotions have been weird lately, kind of mixed up.
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hey blue bird
it's totally normal to feel that way given what you've been thru. your strength and resolve to keep going and keep making goals and attaining them is admirable. which doesn't mean you aren't allowed to have down days. we all do. the one thing I've learned in this life is that things are constantly changing... for better or for worse. what we deal with today won't be the same in 5, 10 years. it gets better, we find new lives to live, new people to be around, new things that make us happy and feel worthy. stay strong but take care of yourself on days like these. although it feels sometimes that it doesn't matter whether we are alive or dead.. the truth is it does matter. more than we can ever know [emoji170]