I guess I have a form of Bipolar which, for me, mostly manifests in hypomanic and mixed states... very rarely pure depression, unless I drink alcohol and am in acute withdrawal. Perhaps it is not bipolar at all.

Anyone tends to have static electricity when you touch a door knob or even your own chair or desk? I am a neuroscientist and even I, with all of my knowledge, don't understand well why I have this static skin or some of my cycles with being so static. It almost makes me avoid random touch with people.

Speaking of scheduling though - I am just breaking one, being up and posting after 2am. Most of the scheduling comes from deadlines outside of my control - being a professor plus having my private business helps as I need to prepare talks both locally and for conferences, need to submit grant applications to fund my research and part of my salary, need to maintain and improve my social media and other communications. I get private clients for my private business mostly via referrals and based on online activity (it is mostly consulting and other writing), and need to schedule basic self-care appointments like having my hair colored/cut, nails, waxes, you know... not because my clients expect it, but I expect it of myself. I need to schedule these otherwise I will not do them, will go on long breaks of self-neglect and then shame and avoidance.

Paying bills and other financial planning is somehow much easier and effortless for me, so that is good. But the physical self-care...

You would never tell my struggles by my appearance because I over-compensate. But it is a constant challenge and if I don't schedule those self-care appointments, they never happen. Same for doctors.