I should not have
Needed to go back
To rehab after
The first instance.
It was my life
And the people in
It who tipped the scales
Against me. If
Fred had announced
He wanted to hold
A meeting, my parents
Would have told him
To take me to
The clinic himself.
I was not their
"Problem" anymore.
So I knew that
His threats were
Empty threats, he
Just knew if he
Brought up the hospital,
It would send
My mind reeling.
And if he did
Force me up
To the clinic,
They probably would
Not even have
Admitted me, at all.
They would have
Saw me as an
Out patient. But
Fred was so tied
Up in himself,
He did not consider
The implications of
Me being admitted
And my sick note
Would reveal I
Was not just
In hospital but in
The psychiatric wing.
And I would have
Lost my job.
The only time
Fred should have
Contacted my parents
Without me knowing
Was to ask for
Permission to get married.
Why could my life
Just not be normal
For five minutes.