Thanks Solairee. This is also my fervent wish, if and when I go back!

Now I will have an even bigger issue with trust......it took me a long time to feel I could trust this woman who betrayed me in the end.

Someone who can seem so kind and caring and tell me she cares, then turning on me because I believe she realized I had found public information on the internet that she was furious with. It's sort of a loss of control issue the way I see it. And my pdoc forwarding my emails to her was the straw that broke the camel's back.