yup...it was just after the 4 year mark with my psychodynamic T when i felt like i had hit a brick wall. i was frustrated...becoming increasingly more depressed, self harming, when i had never done prior and excessive drinking to cope, hopeless and suicidal. many of my trauma symptoms became far worse than when i first started therapy. the transference issues kept leading to rupture after repeated rupture with very little progress from repair. i felt like a drowning hopeless mess. i could clearly see that talk therapy just was not quite doing it for me and that i needed to try something else. for me, it was starting nuerofeedback therapy with another practitioner while i still remained in talk therapy with my T and also focusing on internal 'parts' work mainly in my own time and with the help of my husband. the nuerofeedback help to calm my emotional dysregualtion so i could start participating in therapy without becoming triggered or severely dissociated and the parts work i was doing with my husband helped me (little parts) to form a secure attachment to him instead of frustratingly trying to form an unrealistic and always disapointing one with my T. i made significant progress my last year of therapy because of the neurofeedback and the personal internal work i was doing on my own. i 'graduated' from therapy just over 18 months ago and continue to feel quite content and satisfied with my life and the forward personal growth i continue to achieve.

have you read Bessel van Der Kolks book 'The Body Keeps the Score'?

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00G3L1C2K...ng=UTF8&btkr=1

he explains why talk therapy alone is not practical for overcoming truama, especially complex truama issues and discusses many alternative methods that are helpful to do in conjunction with talk therapy. it was in this book that i learned about the nuerofeedback. it is was reading this book that instilled a glimmer of hope that there were other options available to help me get better and that there are some practitioners out there who actually do 'get it' and understand better ways to address our complex pain.