I was done 7 years ago when the whole drama with the last T finally ended.

I am not even going to wait till I am in a place to find a better fitting T. I am just completely DONE. For life. Not going back to that ****. There isn't going to be a better fitting T for me. With the amount of work I've done on my own, none of them would be able to understand what I need and what I want. I don't care if it sounds arrogant and/or narcissistic, but there is no T out there who comes close to the level of understanding I have achieved as a result of my work. There is no T who'd have anything of substance to offer me. I can see through their games, I know their little "methods" and "techniques" inside out and I know all the theoretical BS behind it that justifies their use. Not buying into this any more.