Well my son cut me a break and asked his gf to bring him out so I could rest.
My daughter is not so kind. Gotta bring her and her friend to the mall again this afternoon. [emoji58]
I wanted to bring them out to lunch but I just can’t do it. Maybe Monday will be better.
I seriously haven’t felt this bad about myself in over 5 years. I felt better when I was psychotic. At least then the demons weren’t real. I even caught myself thinking that my family would be better off without me. That’s about as close to sui ideation as I get.
But despite all this I am still thinking clearly and having no symptoms of psychosis. It’s just the anxiety and seething anger.