I'm in the same boat. No meds worked for me and only made things worse, so I decided not to gamble anymore, even if the doctor seemed to have plenty left in the lineup.

Online support groups have helped some, though I'd need to be more social there. This forum is among them. There's also the Haven (on Discord), about which I heard here, as well as Survivors of Suicide (in Second Life, the virtual world). Both have text and voice chat, which can be a good complement to forum posting.