I don't find myself jealous of my T's other clients typically. I think it really helps that the vast majority of the ones I've seen are not young women. They are too different from me (at least outwardly) for me to feel threatened, I guess. There was one time when I felt a bit jealous when my T greeted a new client. I was in the waiting room waiting for my psychiatrist. I was jealous because T shook the new client's hand, and she hadn't shaken mine when we met. T has never touched me, and until I saw this interaction, I assumed she had a firm boundary about no touching. That reminds me - I do feel jealous when I go into the office to see my psychiatrist and I have to see T greet and go into her office with someone else. If I were set to see her that day, as well, I would not be bothered - it's that I have no claim to her time that day, and some other client does. During those times - and especially since my psychiatrist frequently runs late - I tend to stew in envy thinking about the other client being the focus of T's attention, while I am left in the waiting room and forgotten. I have many issues, but I don't usually fear abandonment the way many here do. However, when this happens, I do tend to feel abandoned.
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