Thank you all for your very kind words. My T has been on vacation for quite some time and I've gone through so much in her absense, more than I can bear. She is still away and nobody covers for her. I've told my pdoc that my meds are working several times but I can't seem to get her to listen. Maybe we've run out of options, I've tried so many. I asked for more AD the last time I was there and she turned me down. So I'm left to deal with this on my own and I don't know how.

Kenny got blocked? Thank God, he accused me of such terrible things, he REALLY upset me a LOT, even more than Lou because I knew didn't mean what he did to me but Kenny was attacking me deliberately. I think he was trying to get me blocked on purpose. I think I must have 'easy target' written across my forehead or something. I'm glad Dr B finally did something for a change. He never replied my emails though. I can't deal with all this pain. It's too much. The damage has been done. I let everything get to me because I don't know how to stop it. I'm too sensitive for my own good.

All I ever wanted was to be loved my whole life. Instead all I ever get is rejection and abandoned. I can't handle abandonment.