I haven't read many of your threads, Darkness.

But I can say to you that if you died, I certainly would not throw a party. Death (especially death by suicide) does not put people in the partying mood. I know because my grandfather killed himself. None of us felt better after he was gone.

I do think it's important to be compassionate and loving to yourself before you can suspect others to feel that way about you. I struggle with self-esteem issues too, and I think people sometimes pick up on that.

Also, I'm not sure what you said to cause someone to block you, but sometimes it is the other person's issue, not yours. I once mentioned medication and got a message saying I was insensitive and unhelpful. I think that person blocked me as well. I did not intend what I said to be offensive, but that was how the other person took it.