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Originally Posted by downandlonely
Also, I'm not sure what you said to cause someone to block you, but sometimes it is the other person's issue, not yours. I once mentioned medication and got a message saying I was insensitive and unhelpful. I think that person blocked me as well. I did not intend what I said to be offensive, but that was how the other person took it.
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It was something really stupid. I was upset at the time because I couldn't find and hold down a job and I was at risk of being homeless and was in a particularly foul mood after getting denied a job at Walmart in the frozen foods section during the holiday season so I was talking about becoming a pot dealer to get by since nobody would give me a chance at a job and the person said that I wouldn't like it in jail and I said that if I got caught maybe I would finally get the courage to off myself so I don't have to struggle anymore. It was awhile ago I could have forgot some minor details but that's how I remember it as.
But yeah, I am sick of people telling me to love myself when I don't know how. I don't know how to feel love, neither for myself nor for anybody else. People tell me to love myself like it's so easy. I just need to accept that my brain isn't wired to love anybody and I'll never have anybody to care about me no matter how hard I try since I clearly don't know how to love so whatever.