Yes, good thoughts Sisabel. With regard to the meditation...what are you trying...so many different ways to practice it. I realized in the beginning I was trying to do something impossible (emptying my mind) but I read about this and found that a good place for me to start was guided meditation. So a voice is helping me. Lots of options there too. ***However, i should say that i recently read a psych article indicating that a few people do not have a positive response to meditation...they found that it made them more anxious or uncomfortable. So you know what works/doesn't work for you