I’m glad you are letting this all out even tho it’s terribly hard.
That woman is just evil and I hope Karma takes her out in a huge way.
Matt is a wonderful T, he will help you see that there is nothing to be ashamed about . This is you taking your passed miserable life and putting it in a box in the back of your mind and it will no longer be on your mind daily or even monthly , most all my garbage is tucked away in boxes far from the forefront of my daily life as you will too.
You have so much good going on in there life and YOU alone has made this all happen.
You are stronger than you think,... T can be gut wrenching but the pay off is a beautiful thing.
Hang on there