I hate the memories it brings up, the emotions I have during and after. *I also hate the onitial target we start with each time. We decided to focus on an issue from a colkege boyfriend because I would disdociate too bad from childhood memories (I have DID) but the college thing usually links me back to childhood anyway. I now see how history repeats itself.

It is just stressful and painful. I would rather just talk the entire session but he doesn't allow that very often. We have been working on the same memory for anout a year now and while I have made progress in a lot of ways I gave only recently got down to a starting SUD of 5-6.

DID makes everything slower and more difficult.