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Originally Posted by zoiecat
I hate the memories it brings up, the emotions I have during and after. *I also hate the onitial target we start with each time. We decided to focus on an issue from a colkege boyfriend because I would disdociate too bad from childhood memories (I have DID) but the college thing usually links me back to childhood anyway. I now see how history repeats itself.
It is just stressful and painful. I would rather just talk the entire session but he doesn't allow that very often. We have been working on the same memory for anout a year now and while I have made progress in a lot of ways I gave only recently got down to a starting SUD of 5-6.
DID makes everything slower and more difficult.
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I have a question about getting your number down. My T always starts with a memory then does the tapping then says how do you feel about that memory now . I never feel any different about the memory. I just lie and say my number is down because I dont know what the hell Im feeling most of the time anyway. After EMDR I feel exhausted though. I have had a memory surface since EMDR (one i know is real) and I have dissociated once in therapy with this T. Does this mean I am not really getting EMDR. Like is she or am I doing something wrong?