I have a huge problem which is constant self-pitying. It's connected to my low self-esteem. Nothing is working in my life because of them, not socially or professionally, and when nothing works, I continue the self-pitying and my self-esteem gets worse, and on goes my life in a downward spiral. I am not sure where people get their self-esteem and worth from. I feel I have no intrinsic worth, and my existence is just a waste of time for me and of resources to others.