I love my kids so much ! I can't imagine a day without them . Almost everyday I think of how my wife lets me down . I need to get rid of her . But I know that it would mean loosing my kids . I am willing to put myself through so much pain and aggrevation rather then loosing them . There are times when I have such a rough day that they are what I look forward to to save me from going insane . They make me laugh so much , just because they can see sometimes I had a bad day . My 7 yr old will write me little cards that e me want to cry . You see my wife is a pig , who needs to get attention where ever she goes . I know those are harsh words but the fact is i caught her cheating once and intercepted 2 e-mails to make me believe she was intending on having others . i know this sounds pathedic ( i don't know if i spelled that right ) but I don't know what I can do . I couldn't care less for her . But I wouldn't tell her that because I know she would just tell me she would leave , which would be fine if she would leave me the kids but that won't happen. Even though as I writting this she is out with her friends and I put the kids to bed . I would rather put up with this crap and die of a heartattack from stress then live without my kids .