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Old Mar 09, 2008, 01:06 AM
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Thanks, Muffy. I understand what you're saying. If I thought I was the only friend this woman has, I probably would have thought and felt differently. I'm not, though. She goes to a senior care center three times a week. There, she's complained so much or demanded, that the van doesn't pick her up. She has one of the workers come get her in her private car. She has at least one neighbor that checks on her every day and she's got a friend that moved out here from New York before she did. She's always catching me up on that friend's woes. She's not alone and she's not helpless.

I think I'll find my peace as soon as I stop reacting to simply being on her street or seeing her house or feeling like I have to check if she's outside before I can go by.

Before all this started, I didn't realize that I still had an exposed trigger. It's there and all I can do is work on it in my own time. It's not pleasant when someone triggers you the way she does me. I'd much rather not have that trigger, ya know?

Thanks for your input, Muffy. I appreciate it.
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