Innerzone, I also find myself sometimes pulled back into an orbit where I 'miss' my ex and it has been almost 4 years. I see this more as a deficiency in my own life than anything good about him.

Fortunately it doesn't last and I also remember how harmful that relationship was to my mental stability, and my mental health. I was very admiring how you were able to get out of a bad relationship and move on with your life.

I ended up developing a full blown psychosis around the fake history he presented as real (he was a spy who was on secret missions and killed lots of people for the US government, or so he told me). I discovered that he had saved a bunch files on my computer full of strange stories about Mexico and also all of his passwords into my gmail account. Needless to say I changed all my passwords.