I finally got a me day; I went after Christmas shopping with R and M; Victoria Secret was of course having it's semi annual sale which is honestly my favorite time of the year since everything is basically cut in half. I usually stock up during the semi because I really do hate paying regular price for most clothing. I do the same with New York and Company when they do 50% off I stock up on dress pants and blouses.

After shopping R and I went to get our nails redone for the party since my nails were Christmas and they didn't really match my dress or shoes for the matter; besides I don't the Christmas trees are appropriate for January. I got my spray tan yesterday so now I have a nice golden glow instead of moderately pale, I try and get a spray tan a month in the winter otherwise I just look sickly and I don't tan in the summer I burn. Irish roots and all.

After getting my gel redone I went to the gym for an hour long swim just to chill; I also spent a little on the treadmill. I really want to lose at least 25 pounds in the new year since that is what Zyprexa cost me. I am eating a lot better; I have kicked pretty much all processed food from my diet; soda and coffee. I am just drinking water and flavored sparkling water; not to mention I haven't gained on Seroquel so maybe it can be done.

I am off tomorrow since I had originally taken it off before I planned on going to the party; I mainly wanted another long weekend; so I can use tomorrow to sleep in and just chill before getting ready for the party. I will probably need to take my Buspar before the party because I am already feeling kind of nervous; I don't have social anxiety but I really don't like a big crowd. I also need to call a dentist and try to get in soon since this wisdom tooth just keeps causing me pain.

I'm still conflicted about trying to find a pdoc with the insurance; M and R both know of a psych PA so I might try to see if I can at least get an appointment with him and have someone's else diagnosis notes other than just my therapist; not to mention one visit shouldn't be to bad; and if I don't like him I can always leave and go back to my primary or if he tries switching up my combo too much. I really like the stability I have now.

I just got out of the shower and put on a whiting strip and a face mask to just treat my skin before the party.

Hugs to everyone