It's as though you have no motivation, right? I know that feeling as well. What I do sometimes when I can't summon any motivation up is reflect on my worst fear, that if I don't do anything then I'll become a failure. The fear of complete and utter failure, if I think about it enough, can be just enough to motivate me to write.

I think there are two main drives that summon us to a higher existence: wisdom through suffering and wisdom through wondering. It's healthier to feel wondering and then do the activity of wondering. It's kind of an adjective an and a verb. A pleasurable one. Plato thinks philosophy starts with wondering. However, there is also suffering which can become so great that it can shake a person out oof their habit and sloth, and to reflect and force you to change become reborn.