I feel better now. RS came over about 2pm but we didn’t go to laser tag or the light show thank goodness. We went to see Ralph breaks the internet with my son instead. After the movie RS and I cuddled for awhile which is our routine after my son goes to bed. I love just laying my head on his chest feeling his heartbeat. It makes me feel so safe and cared for. I feel so much more cared for with him than I ever felt with my ex. He’s always telling me how much I mean to him and how lucky he thinks he is to have found me. It’s so sweet. I’m lucky to have found him too. I can only see this getting better. He gets along so well with my son unlike my ex who said he would hit him if he ever disrespected him. I should have broken it off then but I was stupid.

Now I’m just laying in bed waiting for trazodone to kick in. I have a terrible headache again. And my back and neck still hurt. But if I don’t move it’s ok. So I’m trying to minimize my movements.

I’ve been eating like crazy these last two weeks. Gained three pounds. I know everyone makes it their resolution to lose weight but I’m jumping on the train. Gonna see if I can cut out fast food for a month and see where that gets me. I decided I’m never going to get below 200lb so my goal now is to make it down to 200lb. I know I can do that, I was just 200lb in August. So I just have to lose twelve pounds. I’ve already basically stopped drinking (haven’t gotten drunk in two months and only had three glasses of wine in that amount of time) so that will help. The challenge for me will be to actually prepare food instead of grabbing McDonald’s. I hate cooking so much. Here’s to generous use of the crock pot!