my social anxiety has robbed me of many things since my early childhood but now that i know what it is, i can finally try to work on it. so as a first step i tried to practice some self love but it's hard to pretend that i'm smart and attractive when i am really not. i just know that i am objectively ugly but i still can't just deal with it.
i do pretty good with small interactions like saying hello and thank you to the cashier but as soon as something unexpected happens, like when they try to make smalltalk, i freeze up and take forever to think of something stupid to say.
i just don't know where to start