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Kiya said:
my protectors are pretty daunting - not to be messed with; not by me, t, or anyone else.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">I hear ya on that. My protector guy is pretty intense and goes ballistic if something triggers him. He is fierce and doesn't tolerate c**p from anyone if it means I or one of my younger ego states will get hurt. He has tried to sabotage our divorce process on several occasions because it is so painful and triggering for me. It's embarrassing to me these various "problems" he has caused in the divorce. I really am trying to get through this, but he can't see longterm. He only sees short-term--e.g. "if I do X, then Sunny won't have to go to the legal meeting and get re-traumatized," so he does X and slows us way down or throws us off track. He has tried to get that team member he hates fired from the team, all so I won't get hurt, no matter that it would mean starting from scratch again. Why can't he see that once I am through this, things will be much better? My T knows to watch for him and his tactics now, and I think that will be helpful. I can use strong T to help keep me in the frame of the process.

What is interesting to me is that in my dream, this protector guy was much less intense, a kinder, gentler kind of protector. I'm not sure it was really him appearing in the dream, as opposed to my dreaming about him just because he was on my mind a lot.