Yes, I agree that a T that does both types would be good, but I really am ultimately interested in the exploratory type. The fact that I fall apart between sessions and get negative likely shows that I’d benefit from more frequent sessions which is logistically not possible right now. I’m also high functioning outside of therapy (perhaps my T would disagree as it depends how you measure this) but have found that therapy has created a dimension of my life where I’m not high functioning, probably because I’m opening up to feelings, etc in a way that’s completely new to me.

I’m interested in your comment about how your T thought your emailing was not good. I can’t remember if you’ve elaborated on that before, but do you mind saying more? Obviously that’s something I’m really stuck on, so I’m curious about others with the same predicament.