I just have been calling it chatter because I didnt know what else to call it. It doesnt come from an outside source. Its just me kind of talking to myself. Wanting to flee but wanting to stay so I can work on things. I have left therapy one time and I have dissociated once. Like my vision narrowed, my mouth slumped and I was in sort of a haze but I never knew this particular thing was dissociation because I am still present.