But it's not just about finding a job. It's when I contact anyone without any reason. Many times I message people I know asking how they are doing, they reply by saying they are doing good, and that's it. They don't bother asking back how I am doing, let alone initiate a conversation. I called family on Christmas twice, and they were "busy", but didn't call me back when they were not!! I mean nothing to everyone. Everyone treats me as worthless and with disrespect as if I don't deserve it. I only wish I can be independent and move on with my life instead of trying to keep a thin connection with people who obviously don't care.