So I’m struggling with my past bipolar episodes and moving forward with my life. For example I just got hired at a new job and I still feel depressed but I’m hoping that will change once the job starts but I’m a little worried about it. Another issue is my weight and fitness level. Before my last episode I was doing so well with fitness and lost a lot of weight, now after my episode I gained all my weight back and bigger then when I started last time. Overall I’m just an unhappy person and I know bipolar is the reason I feel this way and I hate that my life has turned out in this matter. I feel like I can’t handle the hardships of bipolar even though I’ve overcome it in the past this time I feel beat down and tired. Can anyone else relate and maybe give advice thanks.