I wish I had an answer for this.

every day I live with childhood trauma, family's hatred for me, my past suicide attempts, all the oppotunities I turned down/ things I couldn't do, I try to do things such as remove objects that are related to that memory, and I have moved several times away from certain areas, but it creeps up on you all the time.

my guess is that I could go and live in jamaica and still be troubled by my past.

wonder if I'll ever let it go