Shooting/suspect dead happened at apts this morning.. the swat team Mandatory evacuated me and some neighbors... I nearly cried when the officer asked who else was in the apt besides me, and replied "just my cat". Then when leaving, the suspect (man) angrily yelling, just really messed with me .. I just had unsafe feelings like anyone/most would.
the whole thing messed with me.

I was really not coherent when walking out, I had only my hoodie some how I had my phone but had forgotten my wallet- I have an odd scared thing around my wallet, like I am afraid I'll be picked up and asked for ID and be locked away because I don't have it.. it'sa fear since I was younger, but today was a bit more.. I just didn't feel ok in my head, again I was havin issues talking full sentences and making sense even to myself... issues understanding where the police wanted me to go too. and I was on that edge. Tried to think of something.. I got my steps in by 8am because I was so disoriented that I just started to walk.the place that was opened later for us to stay, wasnt open when I tried to enter earlier before I started to just walk. .. I eventually walked to a McDonald's. But had issues figuring out this Google pay.

Surprisingly my ex texted me asking if my floor of the building was ok - I called him and tried to explain what I was doing, he asked that I come back towards the apartments and he come get me.
The establishment across the street had opened and allowed us to stay, hung out with some neighbors.
Just shook up, I feel so bad for my neighbors on the corner, their place was the place that they suspect broke into to flee.
This is at least the 3rd time swat had been here this year. My ex wants us to start looking to move, just both to be safer.