I doubt this is normal I think, and I don’t know if it’s from years of hard living with drugs and alcohol, but it’s been like this for as long as I can remember...

It’s black with spinning red scribble lines spinning and shooting one way or another...much like running, falling, staggering through the woods with a red light at night seeing only the outlines of every single blade of grass, leaf, tree....spinning. When I open my eyes in the dark...I still can see the chaos.

When I try to imagine a picture (like now), it’s pushed out of the way and fades away by the swirly red/black mess.

When hypomanic, I see geometric rainbow shapes (mostly round) dancing before my eyes open or shut in a kalediscope kind of fashion, bouncing to a rhythmic beat.

I think my noodles are scrambled.