Move 2 states away, cut off everyone in your life family and friends, live a few years unburdened and do your life and recovery...then maybe get in touch back or stay free. I did this for 20 years. Worked wonders.

Or...

Just take one thing that you would like to change and work on it, piece by piece, one at a time.

Forgive yourself...it’s not your fault for having this condition.

Find a local support group.

Find employment willing to take in account of your disability.

Quit pressuring yourself and accept what happens happens.