Im crying

Idk. Idk if i already have the commitment. I dont want him to become comfortable where hes at, where another guy can actually make a decision. I just dont wanna be like this. All my family members are married. Some are already on their third babies. Babies dont matter. But i come from many 1st cousins. Like 20 or 30 who are already married except me and one other cousin. Its really really depressing for me.

I love what i have but i dont wanna just throw it all away if he decided to one day just walk out the door like there was never any obligation to me.

Im religious slightly and marriage is a huge thing for me.

He comes from family that is drug addicts and single parents. So he doesnt value marriage like i do i think. Plus he isn’t religious at all.

My mom told me to give it six months and reevaluate if i am happy.

But all this worry and crying about if theirs an actual commitment here has me unhappy.