Happy New Year everyone! I hope that this year is better than the last for you all. I have set some goals for myself to exercise a couple days a week at least, to cook more healthy meals at home, and to be social even if I am anxious and want to avoid it. These three things will be important for my mental health.

I spent NYE with a couple of friends at a show. That was pretty fun, but since I worked all day I was pretty tired.

As I mentioned a couple times, I think I have OCD although I realize cannot self diagnose and will talk next week to my psychiatrist. It explains a LOT that has been going on over the years in my life, though. While it got way worse this past year under stress and with the med reaction to the SSRI, I realize it may have been an issue from a pretty young age. I talked to my sister who thinks it would make sense and told me she has OCD. I thought she might, but was only aware of the GAD/MDD diagnoses. This further suggests to me it is a possibility for me.

I realized that I spend too much time ruminating and overanalyzing things and not being present or mindful which makes things worse. So, I am going to try to spend less time online as that is a problem for me, but will try to check in and post updates sometimes.

Sending hugs to those who want them!