I agree. Alcohol is a depressant, so it is the worst thing to do if you're already depressed. It will always make you feel worse, not to mention the effects on physical health and safety. I've never been able to hold my alcohol and I take anti-depressants. Usually I don't drink any alcohol, just soda or something. Occasionally I will have one drink, but then I stop. I'm scared of losing control and passing out and having someone take advantage of me. You are really lucky someone didn't hurt you at that party. Your ex could have done something to you.

Anyway, the ex doesn't sound like a good or supportive guy. Don't worry about trying to get him back. Focus on taking care of yourself first.