I'm happy for 2019. I'm hoping to get stable again with the schizoaffective/bipolar symptoms. The past several months things have gradually been falling apart with my mental health. Psychotic symptoms again, not sleeping, panic attacks. I'm wondering what's happening to me. I mean, I've experienced this stuff before but I had a 6 month period of remission, it just seemed like I'd never have to deal with it again.

So to relate this to my ED, I haven't been eating anywhere near enough and a large percentage of the time it's not intentional. My mind races and hours go by before I realize I haven't eaten. Days just kind of blur together. I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow though. I haven't had food in the house the past week, just crackers and pretzels and a little bit of oatmeal. Again not intentional, I mismanaged my food budget last month. My fridge is empty, same with my freezer and cabinets. I've basically been living off that and coffee.

I plan on having a bagel with cream cheese in the morning though as soon as I run over to the store. I can't wait. I've been so dizzy and cold.

I hope I'm not triggering or upsetting anyone