In the past 3 years or so, my life has been basically a long lonely and isolated journey. I live alone. I don't have anyone to talk to. I have no hobbies or interests. No relationships. No activities. Now that I have no job, I just stay at home doing nothing. My life basically can be summarized by sleeping 8-10 hours/day, watching videos and surfing the Internet for the rest of the day to kill time, barely eating and cleaning, barely going out once every 7-10 days or so. I don't know if it can get any worse. Maybe if I get a chronic unbearable pain or a terminal illness. I feel I am the only one who lives like this. A life of absolute emptiness and meaninglessness. I wish I just could vanish. Being alive is just a waste of time.