I know how you feel. All of December I did not go to the gym once. The girls are waiting for me there. Last time I returned I got lots of hugs and praise, but I can't make myself get dressed and go. My home life is normal, like I get up and dressed everyday and keep to a routine (which has been less strict this month). I am glad for a new month in a new year. Making lists and writing my schedule helps me, but every week something goes wrong and I need to make adjustments, which is so frusterating. Finding ways to get out into the world also helps, but then when I'm out I remember how much I don't fit in and how different I am. Spending too much time on the computer is no good. I know that. Whether it be games, forums, youtube, whatever, no good. Physical activity and social interactions needs to be a part of daily life. I like sitting by the window and looking out onto the trees. That always makes me feel better