I have struggled with the same question. It's hard to understand why God would care about someone like me. But I have felt His love, and you can too. If you ask, and listen, and are in a frame of mind and a quiet place without distractions, where you can feel His answer, He will answer you. Once you get an answer, it still might be a struggle to remember it. You might want to write down as much as you can. He is there, and He is aware of you, and He does love and care about you.